The first two weeks of lockdown I embraced with a flurry of excited activity. I was just moving in to my new home office in the garden #THEHIVE which as it happened was such great timing. I had a long list of jobs to do around the house which we’ve just finished renovating. At the same time, I got sucked into some sort of ‘skills-acquisition’ black hole. Loads of courses on writing an on-line course (something I have wanted to do forever), Live sessions on finding your tribe on instagram, what hashtags to use, how and when, how to write engaging content, video for Instagram, coaching masterclasses, Pinterest tips and tricks, Zoom calls on how to pivot your business, IGTV on flipping your business to on-line....
I signed up to them all - and then started to feel exhausted and overwhelmed. I spent the next week of isolation not doing very much other than worrying constantly that everyone else had attended all of the above sessions - and were now actually applying all of this new found knowledge to their sparkly-over-achieving-recently-flipped-now-online-business. I also assumed they were doing Joe Wicks' exercise class in the morning and baking banana bread in the afternoon. *Very large exhale.
So, feeling myself spiralling a little out of control and, not wanting to make my anxiety any worse, I just stopped. I posted just before Easter to say I was checking out for awhile and tried to construct a new routine for myself. News / social media etc - once a day and as soon as I felt anxious I turned off. I also unfollowed a few accounts whose heroic overachievements were making me feel less than adequate. To be clear I am aware that the problem here lies with me and not the overachievers. We shouldn't be comparing ourselves to anyone - but sometimes that is hard. I also unfollowed those that mentioned Covid-19 in every single post. The situation is very real, and scary, for everyone but I wanted to escape and be cheered up on social media rather than be reminded continually.
I think the message is that we all need to find what works for us. Some people find solace in baking and creating and are great at it. For those who have the opportunity to learn new skills and keep their business going in a new exciting way - fantastic! But - just because you can - doesn’t mean you should. I was putting enormous pressure on myself to make changes to my business before I had time to think them through and decide what I really wanted Honey Interior Design to look like. I feel relieved to stop for awhile and take stock - to have the space to feel creative and come up with new ideas - not because I feel pressure to but because I want to.
A week of pottering, starting jobs and activities - and happily not finishing very many of them - I feel much lighter and happier. The situation hasn’t changed but my attitude definitely has. I have missed being on stories and wanted to stay connected somehow so I thought I would try something different for me. I’ve started a new hashtag #honeyithappened which will be my week in review. Just what I have been up to. I’ll post to Instagram stories on Friday. It's definitely not ideal for building an audience or getting the Instagram algorithm to like you (I know this because of all those courses I attended in week 1!) but honestly, I don’t care - for now it is what works for me. I hope you enjoy the weekly update - and if you want to post your achievements or good intentions for the week which may or may have not happened - then tag #honeyithappened.